Totem

Careless desperation

Undermining self restraint

Still seeking substances stranger than our fictions

Jaded by monotonous standards of living 

Inquired to find new release

Combative thoughts obstructed

Pursued the source of contradictions 

Subsisted on soliloquies

Heightened reverence 

Denying these circumstances culminated in disdain

Self awareness set aside 

Accepting depletion’s detrimental apathy for now 

Exonerates this impulse instantly required

Will this suffice as catharsis again?

Abstain from otiose endeavors this time

Severance was never mutual when blamed alone

Accepting honesty with expansion 

At least that’s how it's perceived 

Identify approaches executed towards ascension

Covet the constraint denied

Declaring boundaries with inhibitional reprieve 

Still differing from the expectation that’s set 

Before their predicted deportation 

More abatement, the mantra of this time spent

Constructing exceptions 

Deliverance 

Take the first shot now

Break

Limiting appeasement 

Calculating assurance 

Devolved by invading invitations

Avoiding the opinion of any adherent believer

Exception antagonist affirmed 

Against the tides 

Discovered potential inflamed 

Define exceptional assimilation 

Beyond this residential prediction

Confided reliance on aperture 

Declared activation

Enabled but unabandoned within an unsought vessel 

My acceptance still undisclosed 

Anecdotes garnered over time excused 

Find the roots of intuition 

Diminished lethargy 

Concern subsided for now

See the sign divide away

My disguise just might evade

I decide wherever skies may stay

Found my place within myself

Allowed in 

Still searching for what I’ve got left inside

Diluting ambition 

Forced acquiescence again 

I’ve got nothing left to prove for now

Permission acquired 

Accented overture

Caught up in a lie with myself at the moment

Ascension demanding occupational hazards

I've got nothing to prove for now but still possess no answers

Command abandoned entrapment of my thoughts

Still on the search for what I’ve got left