Closure

Tell me why I'm sitting at this desk writing this rap

And I really wanna feel sad but honestly I can't

Maybe I do a little bit but feelings are so intricate

And I hate that I give a shit about all that we had

And I hate that I care when it seems that you moved on

And everything I thought about us you went and proved wrong

Strung me along for months and you just used me like a pawn

But if life is like a game of chess then you'll lose in this song

'Cause a king don't quit even when he loses his queen

Got my rooks, knights, and bishops to keep pulling the strings

Got the hooks I write to live up for pursuing my dreams

So this song is not me giving up it's fueling me

Unlike the way you drained me when you couldn't feel so certain

With my happiness impacted by your need for reassurance

I won't let your insecurities somehow become my burden

And I wish I would've stood for myself with my feelings really hurting

Always hoped for the best yeah I tried for it too

Went to therapy to get better tried it for you

Turns out your love was a lie disguised as the truth

And it hurts to find out what's inside your mind isn't true

Would've been six years today now it's only three weeks since we broke up

Now I'm at a new girls place getting drinks and I ain't sober

Feelings all outta place leaving me time to think it over

So I gotta get this off my chest now or I'll never get the closure

I look back I was so complacent

Red flags around me so adjacent

Too colorblind I missed their placements

My eyes have finally been awakened

Strung me along while I was patient

I said that hole in my chest vacant

Running for love and had to chase it

This is my closure had to say it

I know you tried to act like I was never involved

Talked every single day but still you never would call

But when you were at your lowest man I stuck through it all

Even when it was hard to love you I loved through it all

I remember it took Kiv talking blacked out and broke down

At your place that night and it turned all my hope 'round

I question why you didn't make me feel that way I know now

It makes sense too complacent in our dating and it slowed down

I'm sorry you can't be alone 'cause honestly I'm loving it

I'm happy as I've ever been I finally love myself again

But if you ain't got any friends then honestly I'm wondering

If your relationship with men is really just to cover shit

Took months for me to delete all our pictures I don't hate you

Even though I really want to I mean how long did it take you

I know less than two weeks I'm not stupid now I blame you

That I know that you lied was it just all a waste of time to date you

But you can't cut me out the photos of your brother's wedding pictures

'Cause I'm posted in the center so if my brain can't forget ya

At least I made a permanent mark like it's written in the scriptures

This my farewell if it hurts forgive me 'cause I am a sinner

The only pieces I remember are all the things you've said to me

The lies the truth and all the things are in between the memories

Of the good and bad and all we had is just the past that's left for me

It's time to open up a new book to experience what's next for me

I look back I was so complacent

Red flags around me so adjacent

Too colorblind I missed their placements

My eyes have finally been awakened

Strung me along while I was patient

I said that hole in my chest vacant

Running for love and had to chase it

This is my closure had to say it

Still wondering how you gave up like why

Every single day I feel I wasted my time

When I was doing my best you couldn't make up your mind

The worst part is getting over you I hate that you're fine

Still wondering how you gave up like why

Every single day I feel I wasted my time

When I was doing my best you couldn't make up your mind

The worst part is I still love you and I hate you aren't mine

I look back I was so complacent

Red flags around me so adjacent

Too colorblind I missed their placements

My eyes have finally been awakened

Strung me along while I was patient

I said that hole in my chest vacant

Running for love and had to chase it

This is my closure had to say it