You Get The Gist

I was 14 smoking PCP

Didn't want that sticky green only a 40

Then came the Molly oh golly

Mixing Ambien with Ritalin

To suppress what was within

So the demons wouldn't win

Only 17 could've leveled me

No leveled team only pushing the shovel deep

Why couldn't I see? Why couldn't I see?

18 going into county

Hearing 30 then penitentiary

How could it be?

Only did 5 now fast-forward to present time

Now I'm stuck with this 9 to 5

Burying bodies and rapping in the mother fucking lobby

28 and I'm hesitating my fate

Wondering if I'm too late

Staring at my dinner plate

Said I'd shit on them but I constipate

Because I contemplate

Feeling all this work is a mistake

With the pressure from what's at stake

Hear comes the headaches

You get the gist

Red mist red mist

If I shot another miss

Cause I need a fucking Swiss

This isn't the life I'm supposed to live

Had to cut off family and friends

Had to make amends

So please forgive for I had to give in

I have a path but it isn't paved

Been running for days what is remained

Besides the pain and shame?

I just want honor on my new family name

The destination is outta my range

So the hesitation doesn't change

Use to chase that rope but now I'm chasing hope

I just need enough dough to live comfortable

I don't give a fuck about the fame

I don't give a fuck about the cars

I don't give a fuck if they know my name

I don't give a fuck if you think this is hard

They say pressure makes diamonds

But I have wreckage and some mileage

So why am I not shining

Calm down Eric you need to stay humble

Plus if the homies hand you the ball you'll probably fumble

So keep your ducks in a row that's why we huddle

And remember move subtle

Cause if they struggle then it'll be trouble

And have to put em in a puddle