Life Is (Not Always Like This)

So many people i get lonely in the city

Dipping my cannoli in my whiskey

I wish I could show these words to my grand dad

But the fact that I can’t makes me happy and sad

Why am I different I still i don’t understand that

Lead me to ocean please show me where the sands at

In the winter, take me where it’s warm

In the summer, take a chance and dance in a thunderstorm

The grass is greener by a red head

I drink so much sometimes i wake up in a wet bed

Not proud of what I've done drunk but it’s over

At least in the morning I sit and think about it sober

My friend called me a freak, that’s a compliment

Aside from being me that’s my biggest accomplishment

Yeah i’m proud of myself

But i’m also a hazard i shouldn’t be allowed by myself

TODAY I COULDN’T FIND MY BALANCE

FEELING FINE WAS SUCH A CHALLENGE

BUT I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS

YEAH I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS

I can’t smoke weed, but I wish I could

All these cigarettes ain’t doin me good

I threw my to-do list in a bucket, said fuck it

I don’t talk about my future it’s a touchy subject

We shouldn’t go there

That conversation always ends up no where

I fear that man in the mirror

Alienated myself from society but i can’t abandon a beer?

Rap is killing me but I feel the need to do it more

And discover shit about myself most people ignore

They don’t give a damn, it’s a scam

But artists are assholes so I understand

Everything was easy, you were gentle

But our love was a summer sublet, just a rental

It was so eventful

That I still try to relive it with my pencil

TODAY I COULDN’T FIND MY BALANCE

FEELING FINE WAS SUCH A CHALLENGE

BUT I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS

YEAH I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS