Role Model

Yeah, yeah

I ain’t no role model

Not even close to it

I just live my truth and hope that I can grow from it

Searching through my socials and there’s hoes on it

Cause all my bad days are never shown on it

I ain’t no role model

I won’t never lie

I got no one else to blame if I don’t get it right

I’ll probably have an early death cause I got hella pride

I probably let them go too quick cause I won’t tell them twice

I can't word it out formal

I like violence and hood shit and things that ain’t normal

I know they recommend a therapist or something

But speaking ain’t killing these demons (?????)

My coping methods are never healthy

But Vodka and sex a combo thats never failed me

I don’t like no sympathy, suffering, I'll never tell g

I would rather cut of my **** than let them help me

I’m terrified

Every now and then I feel dead inside

And that don’t even scare me, thats the reason why I’m petrified

I don’t fear death, I fear my mum’s tears

I don’t get attached, like 10 women all in one year

Root of it is unclear, i think of it often

Younger me was so pure

Its mad man, I lost him

Never been a smooth ride

Always cause my own trouble

Always been honest

Nah, I never been no role model, I

Never been a role model fuck I gotta lie for

I just dust off my shoulders and then I try more

Never been a role model fuck I got lie for

I just dust off my shoulders and then I try more

Built up anger and some resentment

Got me acting fake happy and just pretending

I got a book full of names, attached with questions

I probably write out the message and never send them

Abandonment issues and ill intentions

Got me doubting some people I shouldn’t mention

On the phone to my father, we're just reflecting

Need the sharpest of knives to cut the tension

It sounds kind of dumb but I’ve been trying to learn a lot from him

Life lessons and some bad traits I got from him

Cause I spent my life blaming myself about all the bad things I couldn’t change in myself

My mother told me that I’m him

I got to know for sure

Can’t just put out the fire, you’ve got to know the cause

We’ve only met on 3 occasions, so it’s awkward more

Shit

Can’t just let them all through open doors

Fuck it, Ima try though

Still got some vengeance in my heart but it just lie low

Still get paranoid whenever I see 5-0

Still got some **** I don’t like but its alright bro

Still hope he dies slow

Never been no role model

Never been an angel

Always kept an extra card hidden by the table

Never been no role model

Never been an angel

Never been satisfied

Always been grateful

Never been no role mode, fuck, I gotta lie for

I just dust off my shoulders and then I try more

Never been no role mode, fuck, I gotta lie for

I just dust off my shoulders and then I try more