These times are darker than this beat that I'm rapping on

I don't know if I'm drowning in a ocean without a life jacket on?

All I know is that I'm a grown man now, but I feel so alone

I miss everyone, in all honesty I just wanna go home

Wasn't this supposed to be my big break, where I finally turn the tide?

Isn't this my dream job that I've searched for far and wide?

Is there a road to success I haven't already unveiled?

Or must I consider the possibility that I tried but failed?

If I could I would take back every foolish word I've uttered

I owe that to family knowing how much they've suffered

Please forgive me mom and dad, my sisters and brother

You're my whole world, but I never really seemed to be bothered

I wanna finish writing this song, but I can't see out of my eyes

I have so much more to say, but for now consider this my last try

Because tomorrow I have to

Wake up, remember to eat

Work hard or end on the street

Walk home, get some sleep

The climb is steep, now repeat

I can't help it, I'm human, I dwell on the past

And lately, I've been doing nothing but that

Am I a lazy prick, don't I work my job, even if I don't like it?

Maybe I'm fucked up by the people I used spend my time with?

I can't talk with another loved one I can't hold in my arms

It's too hard for me, I need a real hug, one that truly disarms

I've been putting too much trust in my capabilities and skills

I still believe in my craft, but faith doesn't pay the bills

It's therapeutic but I blame everything on my passion for music

My wins and losses, I hate but love it, I'm losing it

This is my legacy, you're listening to all that I have

I never gave myself a second option so I cannot fall back

I don't wanna make a living, I wanna make a life

Those few words keeps me up late at night

Why? Because it means gimme money, gimme fame, I got my life to lose or my life to gain

But no matter what, the requirements of me remain the same

Wake up, remember to eat

Work hard or end on the street

Walk home, get some sleep

The climb is steep, now repeat