Luxury Of Self Destruction

I know it starts when I stop to dream

So I’ll find the dark before the dark finds me

Deliberate moves to be in

Well, I can’t afford the time I need

The time I need to start to heal

So I push my head down into these feelings

Ah, the luxury of self destruction, to be self aware

While my mind malfunctions into disrepair

Smile, I walk to get a drink from the machine

Ah, the light inside the corridor screams

I know it starts when I lose my sheen light

In the dark with no dopamine

So delicate, cruel, unbeing

Cause I can’t give up the queen

I feel like I’ve no time to start to heal

Pushing hard into these feelings

Ah, the luxury of self destruction, to be self aware

While my mind malfunctions into disrepair

Smile, and I walk to get a drink from the machine

Ah, the light inside the corridor screams

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed

Worried thoughts and wonders they keep rolling ‘round my head

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed

Problems keep on coming I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead

Never did I ever analyse that dream

No I could've put together all the things I’ve seen

Surrealist standup scene

Ah!

(Self destruction!)

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed

Worried thoughts and wonders they keep rolling ‘round my head

I wish I was sleeping, but I’m turning in my bed

Problems keep on coming I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead