If I'm Honest

I've seen dark roads and sold my soul to things I shouldn't have

I've sinned myself to the pits of hell and didn't think I would come back

Could I still believe?

I've spent my life wondering why I'm even here at all

I've searched for meaning and fought for dreaming and all I did was fall

Could I still believe?

If I'm honest, and I'm not usually

These hymns feel like old fake songs to me

If I'm honest, maybe I shouldn't be

I just hope you're real, I just hope you're looking out for me

At the end of it all when the buildings fall, do I even take that chance?

Did I live a good life, did I even try? Does it count if I did my best?

Could I still believe?

If I'm honest, and I'm not usually

These chapels feel like empty halls to me

If I'm honest, maybe I shouldn't be

I just hope you're real, I just hope you're looking out for me

I want to believe

Yeah, I want to believe

If I'm honest, and I'm not usually

I'm doing worse than I'm supposed to be

If I'm honest, and I'm not usually

You feel so far away from me

If I'm honest, maybe I shouldn't be

I still hope you're real, I still hope you're looking out for me