If I Can't Hear the Music

Follow the score, Kōsei

I’m sorry I have failed

I wanted to do better

I tried to be the son who you expected me to be

Follow the score precisely

I’ve shamed this broken home

I’ve lost to this piano

But still, I’m in the battle, I'm my own worst enemy

It has to be perfect

Where’s my choice?

The black or white voice?

Thrown into the water, but I’ve never swam

Replaying your death

Holding my breath

I’m not mad, I can’t stand who I am

If I can’t hear the music

If I can’t hear the sound

Then I’ll drown in the memory

I’m gasping for air

Is my answer out there?

What more can I give?

Help me, how can I live

If I can’t hear the music?

Though I know it by heart

Every note disappears from me

Oh, Mother, forgive me

You can’t be here with me

I’ll go on, but how

If I can’t hear the music right now

The human metronome

Played every phrase in rhythm

Don’t wanna be the victim, but now

I have lost my way

I can’t win this war

If I lay down my weapon

It’s me against the shadow of the boy who used to play

I can’t recognize these black and white lies

They’re mocking what’s left of all that I knew

In over my head, I'll end up I’m dead

Mother, please tell me what to do

If I can’t hear the music

If I can’t hear the sound

Then I’ll drown in the memory

The tide is too high

Didn’t want you to die

I’ve got no more to give

Help me, how can I live

If I can’t hear the music

As the waves take me out

Oh, the silence is deafening

Oh, Mother, it kills me

To know that I’m guilty

I’ll go on, but how

If I can’t hear the music right now

My one opponent (Ah)

Staring at me

Can you save me? (Ah)

Why won’t you save me?

God, I hate you (Ah, ah, ah)

But I need you

To save me from myself

It’s the end of my rope (Rope)

I’m choking on hope (On hope)

If I let go, will I be free? (Go)

No one understands (No one understands)

The blood on my hands (My hands)

Mother, where are you? (Ah)

Please don’t hate me (Ah)

I can’t hold your hand forever, Kōsei

I can’t hold your hand once I’m gone

If I can’t hear the music

If I can’t hear the sound

Let me drown in the memory

I’m lost on my own in this cursed monotone

I’ve got no more to give

Help me, I want to live

If I can’t hear the music

If I’ve got no way out

Then I'm ending your legacy

Can you hear me crying?

I’m living or dying

I’ll go on but how

If I can’t hear the music right now?