Survivor's Guilt

An eye for an eye Leaves the good men blind I'm the last one alive But I'm burdened by the night I wish I had something to say To make it better Another notch to the rope Another burden to my crown Depraved, disengaged There's nothing here to stop me from an early grave Tie the noose, follow through It's either join the ones I love Or suffer as the Devil's muse An acquaintance of the hangman came to see me today Naïve to disarray You should've seen the look in her eyes When she saw I lost the light in mine Clara my dear I'm not a man filled with many regrets I'm not a man filled with many regrets But I wish I had taken my life instead Yeah! Hated to the bone Yet she sees through my breaking nerves I opened my heart to a stranger Connected through woe, tormented angel She came to terms with who I am I won't let this become my final number Their weight comes crashing down It's like I bear their conscience atop my crown That sits so badly on my head Fuck it, take me now I watch their roses bloom and wilt I wish to join them This is survivor's guilt Fuck it! Let me bleed like a weeping wound Take me instead I'd give them all their lives back for my death Everyone I've ever loved, the dead in the mud Father forgive me for the damage I've done