I Live In Patterns(feat. Alix Page)

I've been wandering my neighborhood at night

My eyes glazed over, starin' at the sky

I don't know which is worse, the comedown or the high

Each brings a set of problems I don't wanna find

But what do you do when the car won't stop

And you're goin' 180 and you can't get off?

You think you're comin' down but it's a fatal crash

And the windshield broke, and you'll never get it back

I am yours for the finding

I can't wait on your timing

I can feel my skull breaking

I, I'm gonna save me

I wait for a sign of life to appear, say my name three times in the mirror

I've learned to sleep with the light on, I am the shoulder that I cry on

'Cause I made a home inside my sadness, big white walls and a twin-size mattress

Don't you know I live in patterns? I am trapped inside my habits

(I am trapped inside my habits) ooh

What do you do when the whole world stops

And you try to adjust but you just wanna get off?

And you think about it every night for months

Like the ringing in your ears that just won't shut up

I am yours for the finding

I can't wait on your timing

I can feel my skull breaking

I, I'm gonna save me

What do you do when the car won't stop

And you're half-convinced that you're makin' it up?

Staring into space while you're crashing out

Your voice gets quiet but your head gets loud

What do you do when the whole world spins

And nobody tells you what to do with it?

And you're hitting your head with your tired fists

And you're praying one day you'll grow out of it

I am yours for the finding

But I can't wait on your timing

I can feel my skull breaking

But I, I'm gonna save me

I am yours for the finding

But I can't wait on your timing

I can feel my skull breaking

I, I'm gonna save me

I, I'm gonna save me