If I Had Never Lost My Mind...

If I had never lost my mind

We'd make it past midnight

Without crying

I could handle two glasses of wine and

We could live on the porch swing

We'd have that white horse thing, a for sure thing

We'd be a rose with no thorns thing

If I was a girl who wasn't deranged

A little more stable, a little less strange

If I, if only I

Could settle the chemicals running my brain

I could be happy, and you would've stayed

If I had never lost my mind

If I wouldn't have freaked out

Told you, "Pack up and get out"

I wouldn't have come down

Two miles down the road in my nightgown

Life wouldn't look how it looks now

If I was a girl who wasn't deranged

A little more stable, a little less strange

If I, if only I

Could settle the chemicals running my brain

I could be happy, and you would've stayed

If I had never lost my

I couldn't stop it, and you couldn't take it

I gave you my heart, and I forced you to break it

I forced you to break it

'Cause who wants a girl who's a little deranged?

A little too much and a little too strange

I don't know why, oh why

I can't seem to settle the shit in my brain

If I could just change, maybe someone would stay

But I lose my mind

Every time