Fooling Myself

Do I sense deep desperation

Or do I miss the thought of you

Must I face the realization

I'm holding onto something we both outgrew

My mind and heart are out of balance

Emotions badly misaligned

Am I truly broken by your absence

Or is my heart misleading my mind

I can't figure out if the grief I feel for you is real

Am I only fooling myself, what's the truth I conceal

Every day is like a year

How am I to know for sure

I can't tell if I'm sincere

Have I created in you more than you were

I can't figure out if the grief I feel for you is real

Am I only fooling myself, what's the truth I conceal

The more I think about you

The more I long to know

Even after so long apart

I don't want to let you go

Now you are gone, so I can't say

And struggle through this hand I'm dealt

I'm left to wonder every day

What you might have thought or might have felt

I can't figure out if the grief I feel for you is real

Am I only fooling myself, what's the truth I conceal