One of the things that keeps coming into my head is,

You know when you're a little kid, and you jump into the pool, and you're so excited

And you just can't wait to swim around

And you find this whole new space where you're a little bit weightless

And it's harder to keep your body down

But you still wanna try so hard to sit at the bottom of the pool

You just wanna have this moment where

All the time spent fighting gravity pays off

And you're able to live in this place of suspension and weightiness

And it keeps making me think about a quote that

One of my friends says is his absolute favorite

"It takes more muscle to drown, than it does to float"

To do this you have to control your breath

You have to make sure that you're thinking about how much you exhale, how much you inhale

But your body betrays you, you're naturally buoyant

And then when we're in the water, we're not heavy enough to sink

All it wants to do is keep you up by the surface

We're never able to defy it totally or completely succumb to it, so we're just left there to float

Suspended beneath, searching for balance between sinking and floating