I bUrIeD mY pAsT bEnEaTh ThA fLoOrBoArDz BuT iT sTiLl HaUnTz Me WhEn I sLeEp

Bury me near highways, uh uh, so no one can hear my screams

Stare at the TV screen, Lucy be twisting scenes, hiding the cuts on my wrist with my sleeves in hopes that no one can see me bleed

Stomping my feet through these warzone but Lord knows it’s normal for me

Drugs in my system, gold on my teeth

Hoping that fucking this hoe and the gold will make me feel like something I wanna be

This rope holds my throat, it gets harder to breathe

And my soul will descend down to the hopeless infernos where brimstone be burning me, it has occurred to me, heaven, no I won’t see

If God really loved me why put me through trauma

I’m loading the llama and ready to squeeze

Imma product of father and how I was brought up

My sister assaulted me sexually

I replay them scenes in the back of my noggin

They talking, I’m thinking bout popping and dropping

The only time I ever feel is when cutting

My mom reassures me but I feel like im nothing

I’m destined to die by my own reflection

I’m losing my leverage and questioning heavenly presence

Why sissy got to do that to me

And T know I love you but thoughts in my noggin are telling me to put you down in a coffin

I get that hurt people hurt people and you were hurt people

And for that I forgive you and I won’t return the same evil