Shame

I wonder if you can see

I wonder if you can tell

I wonder if you see through

The mask I wear so well for you

I'll never let you know what's going on inside me

My shame locks me down

All the things I wanted to tell you

Are all the things I never will

Every time you reached out to me

All I did was push you away

I can't unchain the beast that screams inside me

I hate it, it's what I am

It makes me sick to be so mean

From where I've been and what I've seen

From top to bottom

I am obscene

You smile at me

I smile back

You ask me how I am

I tell you that I'm fine

I don't why I'm so torn up inside my mind

The darkness, it swallows me whole

It makes me sick to be so mean

From what I've been and what I've seen

From top to bottom

I am obscene

It stands in my place

It spits in my face

It's shame, shame

It's shame

At least I don't lie

At least I don't lie

I don't look at myself and say

"Man, you're doing just fine

You're doing great."

I'm not living in a lie

I'm not living in a lie

Or am I?

It makes me sick to be so mean

From what I've been and what I've seen

From top to bottom

I am obscene

It stands in my place

It spits in my face

Shame

Don't go too deep

Don't ask me why

Don't try to know me

Don't make me lie

I wish I didn't know the things I know so well

I try to change, but it's what I am

It makes me sick to be so mean

From what I've been and what I've seen

From top to bottom

I am obscene

It stands in my place

It spits in my face

It's shame, shame

It's shame, shame

I'm not living in a lie, am I?

I'm not living in a lie, am I?

No