Standing on a platform waiting to jump

But I'm too scared because of what happened before

Breaks my heart even just saying your name

But I still love you and I'm grateful for the pain

Like a gun to the head like a knife through the chest

That's why I never let my love progress

Yeah it's January now start a brand new year

I found this new guy

Who makes you disappear

And it hurts me cause I don't know what I want

And I'm drunk right now with your number up

And it hurts to realise but I know

I know you were never good for me found peace in your fucked up fantasy

Was our love only real when you were high now you're sober I don't even get a goodbye

Can't even write songs no more lost that love when you walked out the door

But I promise you baby

I'll call you one more time

Just to tell you this I'm learning to survive

Yeah you found a new girl she got pink in her hair

She can steal my style but she'll never steal my flair

And everyone asks me why I always cry

It's cause I miss you and I don't even know why

And it hurts me cause I don't know what I want

And I'm drunk right now with your number up

And it hurts to realise but I know

I know you were never good for me found peace in your fucked up fantasy

Was our love only real when you were high now you're sober I don't even get a goodbye

Can't even write songs no more lost that love when you walked out the door

But I promise you baby

I'll call you one more time

Just to tell you this I'm learning to survive