Trying Again

To hell with all my hoping

It's a text I shouldn't send

It's a cigarette I'm smoking

With a firework at the end

It's the thought of the explosion

With every drag that I take

But maybe I'll feel something

Before it blows up in my face

Trying again

'Cause at the end of the night all the lights are still on in my head

Should I surrender or fight? I'm just so sick and tired of pretend

Anticipating the end

Maybe what it is won't be what it's been

So I'm trying again, trying again

And I don't wanna be dependent

On a needle in my vein

Like a preacher on his pulpit

Like a harvest on the rain

And I don't know where my home is

But I do know where it's been

So here's to dreaming, here's to growing

Here's to trying again

Trying again

'Cause at the end of the night all the lights are still on in my head

Should I surrender or fight? I'm just so sick and tired of pretend

Anticipating the end

Maybe what it is won't be what it's been

So I'm trying again, trying again

Trying again

'Cause at the end of the night all the lights are still on in my head

Should I surrender or fight? I'm just so sick and tired of pretend

Anticipating the end

Maybe what it is won't be what it's been

So I'm trying again, trying again

Trying again, trying again