Sometime Someday

And even if we don’t decide to leave together this time

I hope life has plans for us sometime someday

Guess I don’t pray unless I need things, and I’m sorry

But I need this like I’ve never needed something

No, my vision isn’t blurred, I am pretty sure

I could count a thousand little words, written as rehearsed

On her face

And I guess that I can learn how to live with her ghost

As long as one of my returns is the peace that we’re given some more time someday

And even when I’m keeping healthy I feel guilty for my being healthy

How could I be happy?

It’s like I’m searching for an answer but when i find it I hide it

Cause I’m shameful just for looking

I’m afraid of looking forward, looking back there’s so much more I know

If all I’ve got is all that’s here, what if all I’ve got is fear here?

I tie my shoes and make the bed, I’m kind to voices in my head

I’m running laps and keeping fed - but god I miss my…

So I guess I’m bound to learn how to weather her

Whether it’s forever or a term

It all ends with worms on my face

And I know this isn’t nerve

These are only words

Words that probably won’t even get heard

But I’ll keep them for when I need them

Cause I need them sometimes some days