For You

For so long, I've been giving myself a hard time

And I've been neglecting everything in my life

'Cause I'm too proud

I wanna be able to talk about what's going on

When my head is in the dirt

Instead I just smile and say "I'm fine"

To all the people that give me their time

I'm getting overwhelmed with this shit

Oh man, it's fucking tough

Yeah, for me to speak about

You've done enough for me so far

Just leave me alone

Can't you see what it's doing to me?

I'm getting choked up so take note

I've got it locked away in here

I told you, man, I'm doing just fine on my own

So step back

For so long, I've been giving myself a hard time

And I've been neglecting everything in my life

'Cause I'm too proud of myself

Speak up when I'm suffering

Man, it makes me sick

Look at you

Man, it makes me sick to my guts

Look what it's done to me

I'm breaking down 'cause I need someone to listen to me

Fuck you, you're what I wanna be

I'm seeing people that are so much stronger than me

How do you do it? I'm trying everything

It took a lot for me to leave the fucking house again

So what I'm saying is, so what I'm saying is

I'm fucking struggling, yeah

I just need, I just need

I need help to get back the pieces I've lost along the way

I just need someone to tell me it's okay

I'm still the same person

I'm still the same person

I just need to find him again

I've started to break free

I've started to end my self-suffocation, it's my only friend

The path that I walked on is showered in hope

The path that I walked on is showered in hope

'Cause I've carried this weight on my shoulders for so long

And it's beginning to drag me down

I let one bad day in my life define who I am

For a whole year, I've become what I'm not

'Cause I'm not what I think

I pushed you away but it's not my fault

It has taken me too long to figure it out

'Cause I'm starting to find my way out of the darkness cast on me

I told myself, I just need to make it through one more day

Fuck

Fuck