Eulogy of Me

Within the confines of the silence

The madness hides away the pain

You put the walls up in defiance

So you can hide away the shame

You mask your scars in your own downfall

The shame suppresses who you are

Within the face it hides the damage

Bleeding silently with scars

Behind the smile hides my demons

Awake to find the world is gone

The clarity is now distorted

We must run away from all

The feelings must be expressed

Or we'll terminate from the weight

Awake too far gone

Blood leaks

Finding traces

Only signs that you

We never spoke

We have an end

Letters to joke

Now I'm weighed down with depression

And the trauma manifests quick

I am sinking in the poison of

The things they never fixed

I awake the sentence gleefully

I will die at my own hands

Cause the world's in complacency

Silence is my friend

I burn with the curse of life

I wish that I was fucking dead

Am I a man now

Am I just your clown

Is it funny now

I guess I forgot the jokes somehow

Do you see this pain

What you got to gain

Let it speak your name

Murder

Open your motherfucking eyes

This shit you call hope

Spoke away your lies

I'm under constant threat

Of being pulled from the gutter

Knock me out

Cast me down

The fucking hand that rocks the ruin

Submit no more to the lies and the bullshit

Then pray and exterminate my worthless life

Break a miracle

And fucking make me go

I'm sick of living anyway

Your such a narcissist

Your God demands the worship

And yet it pushes me in shit and tells me to smile

Thank you for the lesson

And the motherfucking knife in my spine

I am my kingdom gone away

As the pride evolves

Discarded

Aborted

Potential

This high horse looks

Like a noose

Around the neck of truth

You call it faith

I call it excuse

To be silent