Amanda Pt. II

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The funeral

It's Chelsea Baby!

Well, I'm, I'm his number one fan

And I've been here since day one

Yo

Daddy used to say what you don't know can't you

But following His image, should've listened to his words too

I'm jabbed up, all 'cause I ain't know how to avert the truth

Let me write this open letter people can observe through

I fell in love when I was twelve, same school, same class

The gymnast with the curly hair, we hit it off pretty fast

I was deep in puppy love, I'd overdo it with the barking

Every time I made a move, she humbled me, I had to park it

She always kept me grounded, and that kept me attracted

Swift mind, always dreaming, loved the way that you imagined

Even though I couldn't bag, that still my ride-or-die

Until my bag would overflow with vengeance tucked in my reactions

You will never know just how much time on you I spent

Bitterness lingers in my heart, it's hard for me to pretend

My tongue has burned a million bridges that she doesn't care to mend

And now she got another **** (Well, who is he?), he's my best friend

Is it my pride or am I right to view the situation this way?

4:00 AM, up, questioned if my passion was a mistake

I used to pray for knowledge, now I'm longing for my ignorance

Every ounce of curiosity replaced my innocence

I know I need to let it go, I know I need to grow up

And stop waiting at the alter for a woman who won't show up

But I'm always all or nothing, that's just part of my humanity

Did not prepare a plan B, now I wonder

Where's my high school sweetheart? Where's my teenage romance?

This American love story ain't come with a second chance

The Black Norman Rockwell, a goddamn man-child

Just color me navy blue and label me "too wild"

What is it about him? What is it I don't have?

Just tell me my flaws so I can gain the love I lack

I try to get in shape, every night, I would stay 'wake

So you had someone to talk to and still rejection I can't escape

They asking "Holly, who are you?" I don't even have the answers

'Cause so much of me has died tryna live up to all your standards

For the last seven years, your heart has been my greatest contest

Tell me, how the hell do I exist outside your context?

I know I need more help, I'm telling myself I just need time

Ellie found her peace and I'm just steeper on my decline

All my brothers telling me that I'm too reverential

Whole time, I'm just paralyzed and our wasted potential

Yeah

Yeah

If I ever said I didn't love you, baby, I was lying

You're my only love, forever love, until the end of time

It's like 24/7, all the time you on my mind

You the only thing I see, girl, every time I close my eyes

If I ever said I didn't love you, baby, I was lying

You're my only love, forever love, until the end of time

It's like 24/7, all the time you on my mind

You the only thing I see, girl, every time I close my eyes

Stay with me

I want you to stay with me

Stay with me

I want you to stay with me