VILLAIN WITH A CONSCIENCE

Villain with a conscience stuck between two worlds

Over time I done wandered a few worlds

I tell you tales about the settings of my life

But let me stop and just reflect a piece, I'll tell you what it's like

My son is two and those years flashed before my eyes

Even though I'm on the rise, I'm stressin' all the time

How's he gonna feel about the days I'm not around?

How's he gonna feel to know I let his mother down?

I was on the road, my head was stuck up in them streets

Stressin' out my family, I would disappear for weeks

Weeks turn into months and maybe we ain't spoke for years

I let it breathe and reappear with a beat

Listen to these lyrics and I'll tell you how I've been

I was operating overseas

Fuckin' machine

Me **** sittin on the block n' puffin Cali weed

And we've both got little boys

I'm like, "This shit is fuckin' weird"

'Cause it seems like yesterday I could wake up at 9:30

Bill a wake-and-bake, I'm whiffin' early

Now I'm dozin' off before I've even clocked I'm thirsty

"I ain't dealt with Monday's work, I'm comin' up to Thursday"

Ain't no way for me to live, I've got too much potential

I've been on from early, but I'm far too temperamental

Anything I tell you, better keep it confidential

I still deal with paranoia from them rideouts in them rentals

Do you understand?

I thought success was like a hundred grand

I should've really thought it out, it wasn't in my plans

I should've took it when I had the chance

You don't know pain until you've watched it fall apart when it was in your hands

It ain't too late to take another stance

But I ain't takin' any orders from no other man

And I can see it's hard to understand

If you can't see it, you didn't love me in the first place

I'll get this shit done on my own and that's the worst case

My teacher should have clocked my talent in the third grade

If they ain't listening, it's time to walk away

Tomorrow isn't promised, better find another

I did it for the better, but I didn't wanna change

I love adrenaline, it's like an outlet for my rage

Playin' with my fears, and look I know it sounds deranged

But I was six, and when my mother died I thought I wasn't fazed

But secretly I think I spent the whole time grieving

My soul spent the whole time bleeding

In the metaphysical I'm scheming

On the off-season I'm dreamin'

I guess it's just the cost of what we deal with

I guess it's just the cost of what we deal with

The cost of what we deal with

I guess it's just the cost of what we deal with

Do you understand?

I thought success was like a hundred grand

I should've really thought it out, it wasn't in my plans

I should've took it when I had the chance

You don't know pain until you've watched it fall apart when it was in your hands

It ain't too late to take another stance

But I ain't takin' any orders from no other man

And I can see it's hard to understand

But I can't meet your demands

Gotta stick to the plan

Floatin' with the clouds, I've been dreamin'

I'm 'bout to have the time of my life

Been up in a battle with demons

The Most High'll push 'em aside

Lord, prepare me

Path is so clear I don't even need to open my eyes

Show me I'm worthy

Floatin' with the clouds, I've been dreamin'

Been up in a battle with demons

The Most High'll push 'em aside

Lord, prepare me

Path is so clear I don't even need to open my eyes

Show me I'm worthy