What Life Mean (feat. Jave)

One more time

Yeah

Wish I could take it back

Before my skin was filled with tats

My parents wasn't feelin' that

They still loved me anyway

I miss my uncles everyday

Summers in the ghetto with my cousins was my getaway

Thought we would forever play

Where **** sellin' three for fives and it's a long line

At odds with followin' the law and I blame hard times

Stories I told about Miss Elsie

Who was sweeter than the candy she sold

She left it damaged my soul

She birthed my old man

Back and forth with Parge, he tell me

Man up, you's a grown man

But when I put the phone down

I guess I had my own plan

The warmth in his words

And still I ended up in cold hands

Where people quick to show you

Different faces like they Roseanne

Still I sit calm where men got blicked on

Don't think you Superman, this is Earth and not Krypton

I managed to write

Hand me a rope unless you hand me a mic

I hangin' on through the gallows of life

Am I wrong? Cause I wrote songs to get my salary right

Got regrets, ask yourself, you want a baddie or a wife?

Cause I was hangin' roun' them gals who ain't the marryin' type

The saddest of nights, and ain't no one to call but a pint

I got memories

Butterflies in my stomach, I drowned in hennessy

Pain inside my heart, I'd hit my dawg for a remedy

And I know he'd be lucky if he live to see 70

For these dead presidents, they'd hit your top like Kennedy

Merrily, merrily, life is but a dream

And I'd tell em my story just to get a stream

I know my grammy used to sew, but life ain't what it seem

Before he work a double shift, he bought a triple beam

Scoring on a triple team

Would off heads to keep ours off that guillotine

God forgive us cause we sinners from the things we seen

Growing up, I hope you figure out what life mean

What life mean, yeah

Life ain't what it seem to be

Hold on to the ones you need

Everybody is not as real as they seem

Everybody ain't gon' believe in your dream

But we still dream

Even though there's still people that sleeping on me

And you know this life thing ain't always what it seem to be

Ay bey, life ain't what it seem

And this just for whoever wan' listen cause it get hard reminiscing

Was trying to rap to lift my spirits while my soul was evicted

Holding the wishes of knowing when the lowest had hit us

Cause shit was falling for a while and I ain't notice the difference

Shit, the morning I was born in had some mourning inflicted

Cause dad had died a couple months before the waters had given

Forward to living and now dawg I overly chilling

I just happy mommy off them prescriptions for real

Thought I wouldn't graduate 'fore I get me a deal

End up a slave, minimum wage just to get me a meal

Real shit

Until this life really hit you bey you ain't feel shit

Them instagram videos ain't no real shit for real shit

Get hectic trying to compare your reality to they fallacy

When they might see your soul if you show them your picture gallery

Turn you to who you gotta be just try embrace it

Just stayin' green'll leave you jaded from the time you wasted

Rubies read throughout my chapters now I try to say it

To give you gems so you know how to play it

Gotta face it that's life, beauty created from strife

Shit, I could probably run the game I put my pain on this mic

Embrace the tunnel of light, just destination

Get there and it's expiration

Produce, then you introduce opportunity and preparation

Seen it happen before but when my turn coming?

Just spit fire till I burn something

Won't see a casket 'fore I urn something

Use these raps to reaffirm something

Cause till it change bey you ain't learn nothing

I seen potential get too experimental over a pipe dream

But them lawyers help you figure out what life mean

And that's real