How should I

Recover

From all the times I said I'd be your soldier

And now it's over

And I got older

I'm still not sober, but

Life moves like a circus

Dark below the surface

Pain so unpredictable

And that's what makes me nervous

Cause nothing's ever certain

Roll one up and burn it

Hit me up with nonsense

Bitch your bullshit don't concern me

Who's gone pay for the damages

Replace all these bandages

Make the same mistake don't think I ever learn still need reassurance but

I swear to god I thought handled it

Think it's time I abandon ship

Always struggle with abandonment

Self-prescribing smoking cannabis

In this dark room while it's candle lit

Stand still

Stand still

Never felt guilt like this

From the things I did

I know you feel it in your chest

Probably can't get no rest

Probably sitting in your head

Dead

I know I fucked up real bad

Lost the best thing I had

Wish I could take it all back

Wish I could take it all back

Life moves like a circus

Dark below the surface

Pain so unpredictable

And that's what makes me nervous

Cause nothing's ever certain

Roll one up and burn it

Hit me up with nonsense

Bitch your bullshit don't concern me

Life moves like a circus

Dark below the surface

Pain so unpredictable

And that's what makes me nervous

Cause nothing's ever certain

Roll one up and burn it

Hit me up with nonsense

Bitch your bullshit don't concern me