I’m staying over

Asked my ex-boyfriend for closure,

Then I killed him in a dream,

Didn’t know I had that side of me

& then he texts me like 3 years after he hexed me

Like I’m so casually gonna pick up when he rings

Are we all living on the same planet?

I don’t think you understand it,

I’m not dishing out what I can’t take

Cause you already threw the baby out with the water

When I was 17 and everybody told me “I can’t sing”

HA HA!

All you girlies peaked in high school, wanna follow me

Now you’re all wifed up & married,

Living in the Georgia peach

& I’m still the same,

But you’re 24 years late

Single, I don’t mingle

Out in LA trying to get paid

It’s not glamorous,

But at least I can say you trained me

Swimming with the snakes isn’t easy for everybody

IF ME AT 17 COULD SEE ME RIGHT NOW

SHE’D SIT BACK & TAKE IT EASY ON THE COUCH

WHERE’S THE CAMERAS?

IT’S A MOVIE, NO BOW!

AT 17 I WISH I KNEW WHAT I KNOW NOW

I KNOW NOW

MMM

AT 17, 17

MMM

AT 17 MMM

AT 17 I WISH I KNEW WHAT I KNOW

I built my body from pieces they wanted from me

Just to find out what they seek

I’ll be Kool-Aid if they drink

I write this message so you tell me I’m authentic

Then I hit up pilates

I don’t look this way for free (haha)

I’m still a Junior dressed up for Halloween,

Don’t eat all day & take a drink or 2 or 3 or 8 or 10 or 23

Then I threw up all over my angel wings,

I didn’t mean to cause a scene, but I thought maybe one day, then I may be seen

Hated high school, but I look back on the memories

Praying for the girl who only wanted to be wanted,

Please!

And I’m still the same,

Somehow, that makes me feel sane

I don’t get to choose

How deeply the wounds informed my pain

It’s not glamorous,

But at least I can say I worked for this,

I’m sorry that I dropped you on the way to find my purpose

IF ME AT 17 COULD SEE ME RIGHT NOW

SHE’D SIT BACK & TAKE IT EASY ON THE COUCH

WHERE’S THE CAMERAS?

IT’S A MOVIE, NO BOW!

AT 17 I WISH I KNEW WHAT I KNOW NOW

I KNOW NOW

I KNOW

AT 17 I WISH I KNEW WHAT I KNOW NOW

AT 17

I WISH I KNEW

I WISH I KNEW IT ALL AT 17

17

I thought I knew it all at 17,

But then again, I still don’t know a thing

I wish I knew it all at 17,

But then again, I know nothing

Mmm

I’ll never know a thing

Cause it’s not up to me

Never been up to me

Mmm