God Hold You

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i hear you in the morning

singing allelu

and love immortal 

and i 

i am no longer ashamed 

wish i could live those years again

you’re something like a dream

or something i could never reach

or quite discern 

in memory

you got me 

eventually 

texting as kids

still remember the whole thing

and how it let the light in 

honey sandwiches in the gymnasium 

grazed knee on the ziggurat 

fuck, i been down so long 

never want to feel like that again 

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only noticed when i stopped

you only had to ask 

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