6HRS

I hate myself every morning

But give me a second to change

Said please, thanks, excuse me, I'm sorry

Yeah I know, how to fool

Crooked smile, even now I don't know is real

I don't like to think about it

If someone could save me from myself, I wish they would

But I'm either overthinking or misunderstood

And all of the lies I place with caution, won't stay put

6 hours and it's out of my hands

6 hours till I'll wake again

Last door down the hall

New frames on the walls

But It's always the same

Lost pride and self control

Bitter pill, but down it goes

A familiar taste

Down at the water, I'll drowse and drift away

I'll take the fault if I drown and so I pray

Knees pressed to the floor

Begging you, but I'm sure

That I know what you'd say

I know, I know that I've been better off

To tell the truth I'm insecure and just a bit dishonest

Maybe more honest than I should've been

I know, I know that I am bitter often

I know I never seem to finish what I always start

I know I shouldn't show my hand before I see the cards

But I couldn't help myself and now I think it's over

Pull focus, I'm always thinking, I'm overloaded

I could fall through the cracks, through the glass, sinking fast

Thinking I'm overdue, overdone, overthink everything that I was

I wanted something more than I could see

Maybe it's more than I am or I could be

Do you think you could see me?

Think you could see me?

In color not black and white since I was born

But now there's no feeling

It feels like I'm losing a part of myself that I used to know me

Used to know who I was

Patience and grace is now burdensome

Nothing but burden under the sun

So I turn the key and just let it run