Messy

Had nice things but I broke 'em all And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out Yeah, I'm sorry that I let you down When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? The sun is up but I just don't wanna face it I found my phone but I lost my motivation Took all my big dreams and threw 'em in the basement 20-something, yeah, I'm running out of options Running from these demons in my old Doc Martens Mixing all my problems up with grenadine I try, but I just can't get it right Had nice things but I broke 'em all And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out Yeah, I'm sorry that I let you down When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? I keep my medication underneath my pillow Anxiety hanging over my head just like a halo I'm too afraid to see the world so I just lay low I lay awake and try to tell myself a story But even all my fantasies are pretty fucking boring That's why I fill my cup and I feel it in the morning I try, but I just can't get it right Had nice things but I broke 'em all And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out Yeah, I'm sorry that I let you down When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? And how the hell did I get so messy? When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy? Had nice things but I broke 'em all Now I'm screaming at my crystal ball When did it get so heavy? And how the hell did I get so messy?