Letra
12 o’clock, I’m taking shots
Knock ‘em back until the night blurs
Slumped behind the mic
I’m quiet till I find the right words
Shed so many tears throughout the years
My fuckin eyes hurt
Never thought I’d make it to this age
I thought I’d die first
It’s hard to sleep at night
Cuz all I have is nightmares
I killed my ego
So I can admit that I’m scared
I see death around the corner
Look, it’s right there
I’m tryna run from it, hide from it
I swear
That I’m haunted
There’s monsters that have it out for me
I catch myself
Looking down from my balcony
Then I remember
That there’s people that still count on me
And I can’t let ‘em down
They love me and they vouch for me
Ain’t no color in this world
It’s all been stripped away
I guess that’s why it’s hard
To live to see another day
I’m just banking on the chance
Someday my life’ll change
What’s the worst thing that could happen?
Shit stays the same
Faded mental state
I’m spinning, in a different mode
Vagabond, I strayed away
I’m far away from home
At least I’m working on myself
I have more self-control
Than I ever had before
But I still feel alone
I’m lost in a dream
In the deep end
Dead weight
Dragged down, I’m sinking
I’m blacked out drunk
Every weekend
Monday to Monday
I sleep in
Can’t stand
When reality sinks in
Black heart, it’s broken
In pieces
Life’s hard
I’m searching for reasons
Where’s God
When you really need Him?
Flip the switch
Code red, it’s an emergency
My past is catching up to me
It’s fuckin’ hurting me
In a maze
I’m exactly where I deserve to be
No one sees me tryna heal
They only see the worst in me
I’m not being dramatic
I’m not okay with this feeling
I’m not tryna force an image
Y’all just find mine appealing
My words are therapy
Spitting my pain’s the gift I was given
I’m just a vessel
Expressing emotions that we all deal with
Holding on to hope
Hanging on by a thread
Don’t wanna be alone
But we all are in the end
I don’t wanna go
Too deep in my head
Ion wanna think
About me being dead
Innocent heart
Racking scars up
Got hard luck
From now on I’m cautious
I’m putting a wall up
I’m keeping my guard up
I’m done getting caught up
I’ll try pushing forward
Till I turn to stardust
I’m lost in a dream
In the deep end
Dead weight
Dragged down, I’m sinking
I’m blacked out drunk
Every weekend
Monday to Monday
I sleep in
Can’t stand
When reality sinks in
Black heart, it’s broken
In pieces
Life’s hard
I’m searching for reasons
Where’s God
When you really need Him?
Written by: Jacob Loaiza
