I'm staying over, asked my ex-boyfriend for closure

Then I killed him in a dream, didn't know I had that side of me

And then he texts me like three years after he hexed me, like

I'm so casually gonna pick up when he rings

Are we all living on the same planet?

I don't think you understand it

I'm not dishing out what I can't take

'Cause you already threw the baby out with the water

When I was seventeen and everybody told me I can't sing

All you girlies peaked in high school, wanna follow me

Now you're all wifed up and married, living in the Georgia peach

And I'm still the same, but you're twenty-four years late

Single, I don't mingle, out in L.A. trying to get paid

It's not glamorous, but at least I can say you trained me

Swimming with the snakes isn't easy for everybody

If me at seventeen could see me right now

She'd sit back and take it easy on the couch

Where's the cameras? It's a movie, no bow

At seventeen, I wish I knew what I know now

I know now, mmm

At seventeen, seventeen, mmm

At seventeen, mmm

At seventeen, I wish I knew what I know

I built my body from pieces they wanted from me

Just to find out what they seek, I'll be Kool-Aid if they drink

I write this message so you tell me I'm authentic

Then I hit up pilates, I don't look this way for free

I'm still a junior dressed up for Halloween

Don't eat all day and take a drink or two or three or eight or ten or twenty-three

Then I threw up all over my angel wings, I didn't mean to cause a scene

But I thought maybe one day, then I may be seen

Hated high school, but I look back on the memories

Praying for the girl who only wanted to be wanted please

And I'm still the same, somehow, that makes me feel sane

I don't get to choose how deeply the wounds informed my pain

It's not glamorous, but at least I can say I worked for this

I'm sorry I dropped you on the way to find my purpose

If me at seventeen could see me right now

She'd sit back and take it easy on the couch

Where's the cameras? It's a movie, no bow

At seventeen, I wish I knew what I know now

I know now, I know

At seventeen, I wish I knew what I know

At seventeen, I wish I knew

I wish I knew it all at seventeen, seventeen

I thought I knew it all at seventeen

But then again, I still don't know a thing

I wish I knew it all at seventeen

But then again, I know nothing, mmm

I'll never know a thing

'Cause it's not up to me

Never been up to me, mmm