Disappear

Daddy, I've been thinkin' about you lately

Mama's never here and Stepdaddy hates me

He drinks a lot, it makes him so mean

Mama always screams, and it gives me bad dreams

Today, I dropped my bowl of s'ghetti on the floor

I didn't mean to make a mess

I tripped on one of my toys

I tried to clean it up, really, I tried

But I just made it worse, so I went to my room to hide

I knew if Benny saw it, I'd be in so much trouble

I didn't want to, but I did

And the thought of gettin' hit scared me, so I didn't tell him

Benny saw it, took off his belt

And, um, you know, he hit me with it

Then he pushed my face into the carpet

Where the s'ghetti spiltted

But I forgive him, though

I love you, Daddy

I guess I gotta go

There's a moth on my windowsill

And it came to die alone

Through the pain of the pouring rain

I gaze into the storm

And I imagine I'm the son of a man

Who will hold me close and near

With these bruises on my face, I cry

While I pray to disappear

Disappear, to disappear

Disappear, to disappear

Disappear, disappear

Disappear

Daddy, are you there?

I know you're probably busy, off workin' somewhere

Helpin' somebody build a house or somethin' neat

You told me what you did, carpentry, right?

Man, that's so cool, Daddy

I really miss you, so much that I would kiss you

Yeah, even in front of my friends

I guess you know I'm gettin' sick again

I've been throwin' up, I haven't been playin' much

I missed a lot of school this week, but I'm tough

I'll make it, you know me, Daddy

I don't get what I want most of the time

But I'm patient, huh?

Hey, if you get a second

Maybe tomorrow you could come by, just to check in

Because my babysitter's crazy

Mama don't believe me, but she makes me get naked

And I'm embarrassed, so I hide it

I'm tellin' you because you know my heart, and what's inside it

I gotta go to sleep, but don't turn off the lights

I love you, Daddy, or should I say Christ?

Should I say Christ?

Gotta go to sleep, but turn off the lights

I love you, Daddy, or should I say Christ?

There's a moth on my windowsill

And it came to die alone

Through the pain of the pouring rain

I gaze into the storm

And I imagine I'm the son of a man

Who will hold me close and near

With these bruises on my face, I cry

While I pray to disappear

Disappear, to disappear

Disappear, disappear

Disappear, disappear

Disappear

When the weepin' willow tree

Sways from the breeze, I float away

To the end of the world

To the moon, to the stars

To the heavens, where I'm safe

I'm a child, not a prey

I'm an angel, enslaved

I'm a life, I'm a world

I'm a rose, put to waste

Wake me up, let me live

Let me breathe, let me breathe

Give me love, give me soul

Give me guidance, give me peace

Peace, peace, peace peace

Disappear

Disappear

Disappear

Disappear

Disappear