I remember this feeling so slowly

I was being taken by the wind

I understood exactly what you wanted

Understood that I could never win

I fell from the top of their towers

I was being taken by the wind

The ground looked so inviting

But hitting it would mean you'd win

And now I hope that I could save

A little bit of time by mending pain

Not mine or yours at the end of the day

But the pain of those that never stayed

I've lost so much in such short time

My dreams are filled with your eyes

18 months, not enough

But 18 months, is all I've got

And I'm not sure if I'm

Bending or breaking

I feel gods and demons

Taunting me

They say it's all in

All in his plan

But what kind of plan

Would take you from me

And it's sickening

More than I can describe

That people can look me in the eye

And say, it's a part of life

So fuck you and all of the things

That tell you, you have that right

Unholy preacher of worthless thoughts

I hope you don't wake up tonight

And I'm not sure if I'm

Bending or breaking

I feel gods and demons

Taunting me

They say it's all in

All in his plan

But what kind of plan

Would take you from me

I will live in this pain

I will love in this pain

I will die in this pain

I won't escape from this pain

This is where I choose to rot

This is where I choose to R̶̨̧̛̟̹͎̜̙̺̹̜̼̩͓̬͖͍͇̈́́̓̈́͆̇̍̆́̀̽̏̇́̍̏̋̈̇͘͜͝͝͝ͅö̵͎̲̜̖͈̰̬́͗̀̍́̇͛̀͒̾͆̎̚̕͜͝ţ̷̨̛͔͓̦͓̟̮̬̪͙̜̹̠́̅͆̀̒̈́̾̓́̅̐̃̈́̾̀͝