Routine Pain

On any given day, I'm a six of ten Bed to desk to bar, eyes on the floor I'm still apologizing for the way I've been Each breath more full of shit than the one before Yeah, I know, the negative consumes me Guess I'm alright Let the guilt pass right through me while my friends are taking dives Off of cliffs, and I just worry about the songs I'll never write It don't matter, they won't hear me on the other side So let me ruin my guts tonight Just let me ruin my guts tonight On any given day, it hurts to stand up straight Erasing the same message from my phone Reaching out to friends who probably think that I am dead I should want to go home, but I won't These past four months, I've been so angry I'm not alright Could you please come look right through me and try to give a reason why I don't know you, or why you care But the devil's loose inside And I'm so sick of saying sorry when I cry So let me ruin my guts tonight Just let me ruin my guts tonight You can haunt me 'til the world ends And we melt in the sunlight Just let me ruin my guts tonight On any given day, I'm out to break your heart On any day, you'll bleed me my self worth I'm done asking, "What's the point Of finishing the things we start?" We've got ten years with these bodies And maybe 20 on this Earth But you said "I can't take another summer in this place Everyone in this bar is the same Everywhere I look, it's just routine pain I'm so sick of treading water Am I gonna be this down forever? Am I gonna be this dumb forever? Am I gonna be this gone forever? Am I gonna be this numb forever?" Have you ever felt lower than everyone else? I'm feeling lower than anyone else 'Cause everything's lower than everything else I wanna see how much lower I can go Have you ever felt lower than everyone else? Well, I'm feeling lower than anyone else Well, everything lower than everything else I wanna see how much lower we can go How much lower we can go