Rainbow

I can feel the weight around my ankles Can't wait til the day I see this pain go Sunny days gone can't wait til the rain go I really need to see a rainbow I can feel the weight around my ankles Can't wait til the day I see this pain go Sunny days gone can't wait til the rain go I really need to see a rainbow I was a little over 8 when I knew It was right before 18 when they found out I was ashamed of who I was I didn't know what to do I thought I could hide it forever never come out My interest was just like the guys when I was coming up I couldn't hide it anymore no longer cover up I wore my girl clothes in the morning on the way to school Then pulled my baggies out my backpack I'm like this isn't you Then my parents found out and they said this isn't you Why you wanna be a dude don't you know you're beautiful Like I didn't know but those words had made me question Is my inner work overridden by how I'm dressing And I took it so personal thought they thought I was dope If no one else love me my parents do now I'm losing hope First heartbreak already lasting too long Only 18 and singing the saddest song I can feel the weight around my ankles Can't wait til the day I see this pain go Sunny days gone can't wait til the rain go I really need to see a rainbow I can feel the weight around my ankles Can't wait til the day I see this pain go Sunny days gone can't wait til the rain go I really need to see a rainbow He didn't know it all but it really wasn't his fault I mean he was just projecting everything that he was taught He was just protecting what he thought would bring me harm I had to break down and learn his intentions most of all I spent too much time thinking my Daddy didn't love me Too much time thinking my Mama wouldn't want me Too much time dwelling on how I missed my sister And thinking if I disappoint Dad the more he'd miss her But I was wrong sorry cuz I was wrong The more clarity I gained the more time I kept it strong A lot of people gon listen and might think I'm trippin But when somebody love you and give you life you give forgiveness Plus I hurt them too in different ways and never meant that You gave me life and healing is the best thing I can give back So happy that we had our conversations in the open Now we glowing and we growing from the days that it was pouring I unlocked the chains round my ankles Finally seen the day I let the pain go Sunny days here I can let the rain go I finally see my rainbow I unlocked the chains round my ankles Finally seen the day I let the pain go Sunny days here I can let the rain go I finally see my rainbow