Let You Down

Running the numbers, and I’m running out

Faced with my failures, closer with every round

Cutting the corners, but it’s death by papercuts

If I asked you, would you help me get back up

There’s a whole lot of shit that I’m not sure about

I could use your love while I’m workin it out

But I didn’t call you so many times there’s too much doubt

What am I doing

What if I’ve let you down

What am I losing

What would you think of me now

So this is my burden, this is my compromise

Been leaving out details, leaning on little lies

Imagining judgement everywhere I go

Feeding the demon, then pushing it deep below

So I pick up my check and I sneak out the back

Try to hide from the shame of the things that I lack

But pen hits the paper so many times and you can’t go back

What am I doing

What if I’ve let you down

What am I losing

What would you think of me now

It isn’t the choice, it’s the reason I made it

I should have been strong like the man you raised me to be

And I feel the weakness that runs through my bones and I hate it

And I don’t ever want you to see

What am I doing

What if I’ve let you down

What am I losing

What would you think of me now

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