Dearly Departed

I'm holding onto a feelin'

Endorphin rush to the brain

I want it all to keep goin'

I mess it up again

Why do I always

Fuck things up

When they're goin' fine

Tell myself that I know what I'm doin'

I am no martyr

Only make it harder for me

I'll stay lost

When I ask for direction

Put myself

In a shitty position

Dearly departed

Get me out of my head

Get me out of my head

Maybe I like staying no one

Just when I start makin' names for myself

I finally get into heaven

I think I am better suited for hell

Because I always

Fuck things up

When they're goin' fine

Tell myself that I know what I'm doin'

I am no martyr

Only make it harder for me

I'll stay lost

When I ask for direction

Put myself

In a shitty position

Dearly departed

Get me out of my head

Get me out of my head

I put my foot in my mouth

My head was filling' with doubt

Back in hometown

They keep erasin' my name

I guess I'm takin' the blame

Gimme the runaround

For so long been gettin' used to feelin' miserable

Don't you feel miserable, too?

Why do I do what I do?

I couldn't fix it if I wanted to

Why do I always

Fuck things up

Now you've run out of pity

Startin' to think

That I like feelin' shitty

What a disorder

Don't even bother

I am no martyr

Please don't feel sorry for me