What do I have to lose having lost so much that matters. All that i’ve loved for so long is now gone. What if I have more to lose? Haven’t I suffered enough? Is it too soon or am I just holding on? If death is in the wind then let it blow me away. Why didn’t I try to change when i saw it coming all along? I knew it was the end long before it had ended. In the silence of my mind can I find something to replace my pain. Now I sink in desperation learning to deal with the pain. I won’t cry no more I won’t give myself that satisfaction. I know those feelings may someday rise again until then i’ll be waiting for tragedy’s end.