Scared of Who ?!?

I be gazing at the stars wishing I was there Momma said that imma be a star, I guess life isn't fair Momma said that one day ill go far, but I still don't know where Trauma make this growing shit real hard, I guess life doesn't care One day imma set the bar so high they'll say he cant compare One day imma write these bars so fire, then they'll start to care One day imma start to fly, but right now I'm just stuck down here How the fuck I get so far behind, I guess life isn't fair I guess life isn't fair Want my art to stop you in your tracks, make you sit and stare Wanna touch some hearts with all these raps, some hi hats, and a snare Wanna start a sound, when they look back see I was always there I'm scared, scared what I do ain't helping, it's just holding me back Scared i wont last, scared all I do is destined to just fade into black Scared of the past, scared of the future, present, scared of growing too fast I'm scared of the fact that I spent all my youth just stressing, now I wanna go back Mom scared by the life I'm living, time slip when I write these writtens Please gimme a sign if this hit, if you gave one already I guess I missed it Hell world guess life's a prison, spending all my time just sitting My mind been goin to shit and I'm still tryna find out why I should finish Still finding what I should do different, still blind to the light I'm missing Still here can't find my mission, still feel guilt bout the life I was given Still wish I wasn't so distant, never works when I try to fit in Every chance I always miss it, every time I don't know what to say Every time I go outside they all just walk the other way Always try so hard to find out what I gotta do to hang Know that's why I stay inside my shell because it's always safe I've been slighted all these times so maybe I should stay away Caught inside all of the he said she said until I break Every night I always regret how I spent all my day Close my blinds they wonder he dead he dead is he ok Guess I'm alright just wanna forget everything I've ever said