The Monster

My life looks pretty on the outside

But I'm so lost and lonely on the inside

I get a taste of hell every waking day

I can dream of possibility

Feels like I'm locked inside a prison, no key

My suffering and pain, they're all here to stay

Cause I always could've done more

Always could've been better

My thoughts are killing me

And I just can't make it stop

Feels like I've tried it all

And now I just feel lost

Is this all there is to life

Waking up to die

I wanna change the world and do some big things

But I can't even get the dishes all clean

I hate myself, not living up to my dreams

I'm in a hole so deep I just can't get out

Would rather help others sort their own shit out

But then I carry their weight and it crushes my soul

Cause I Always could've done more

Always could've been better

My thoughts are killing me

And I just can't make it stop

Feels like I've tried it all

And now I just feel lost

Is this all there is to life

Waking up to die

Cause It's never enough

I'm failing myself

Or somebody else

I try and I try

I fight for my life

Is it worth living?

But I don't

Wanna die

I wanna be here

In this life

I want peace

I want love

And I know

I wanna live

So I love me first

And I love my life

And I love myself everyday

True Love - it's inside me, all around me

I get to choose it everyday

And it's always here to stay

Because I come from Love

And that's all there is