Beautiful Eulogy

Feeling so empty as I'm practicing traditions Life hitting different am I losing my religion Past showed its presence and this feeling ain't pleasant Fighting with these ghosts and they got me second-guessing Feeling pain cause some words are just hard to say Some may walk with you others choose to walk away Others giving kind words along with some scriptures I'd rather have this liquor transform to my elixir Fatigued and frustrated my faith feels fragility Hoping for a healing and hunger for humility Enter the wilderness got freedom and some guidance Learned to be still, found the reason for the silence So thankful for the prayers that God didn't answer Thought it be the cure but would've been a cancer Need some strength, may the Lord come and bless my soul Cause the art of holding on means letting go We can all get to a point where we're overwhelmed We all get to a point where we feel shame We all get to the point where we don't feel good enough We all get to a point where our identities Are so defined by the world's messaging We can't even hear what God is saying about our identity We on a journey and run into these crossroads You might wander doesn't mean you're a lost soul They say one day that it all makes senses Seems like the more I'm learning, the more I lament Man, took a loss doesn't mean that I'm losing Had to gain clarity and lose some confusion Gained self-discovery and got some introspection Never be afraid to call things into question Keep the status quo what the hell am I preserving If God can't be questioned then why should I serve Him Might of lost my religion but I found my faith Still trust the Messiah and his astounding grace Heal to rebuild start picking up the scaffold Now on this road are some hard things to grapple Keep some close friends can be potent and be pivotal Choosing curiosity and open to being critical Diversified my faith didn't compromise the truth Removed the whitewashing and arriving at the root I'm made in God's image not the image of whiteness Walking by His grace I'm forgiven and righteous Rest in the extra nos and notice the sacred rhythms Used to feel dead inside now dwelling with the living Had to slow it down then remove the disconnection Thank God for the mourning cause it brought resurrection And I want to challenge your ideology of when you say I am going through a dark time, I can't see What God is doing, what God is saying You are right where I was when I created the earth Something beautiful is coming He creates beauty from the unseen So when you find yourself in a moment saying I'm in a dark time or I've never been here before Smile, your Earth, your Eden, your sunrise is coming