Pain in December

I'm from a city where the skinny **** ride, ain't pretty

And plenty women lying wind chilly

Depression got my mind gone

Need love, send plenty, aye

I'm falling apart and I cannot deny it

Why my favorite dreams is the ones I'm finna die in?

Where is my balance?

Why is my grip slipping?

Sometimes I think I'll Cobain myself and slip clips in

My ego died they say when it's gone

That's when you in your purest form

And why I love when the sun gone and appreciate when it storm

I see the ice falling slow on the window

She tried to lie say she love me, but she didn't though

She sent a RPG where my heart at

It's rated R no PGs where my dreams happen

This the land of the heartbreak

Broken dreams on a flannel

This the aftermath of hurt

Pain scented candles

When she walk into my room felt my ghost standing

Plus I'm awful

All I know is hurt and panic

When I look inside the mirror see my demons dancing

Running from the truth, girl, I'ma need all the answers

Crutches falling, autumn leaves, uh

Plus I'm dying, RIP

I felt the sunshine turn to rain ****

I spent days inside and went insane ****

I'm from a city where these skinny **** ride for survival

That white man looked at me and stared cause I'm tribal

Long black hair like I'm Samson got power

Baby girl just stared at me, don't be scared I got power

Loud ass emotions

Why I just drown in them

Tryna turn the sound down inside my mind's prison

And I can't escape, trapped in this world

Where they love to see you break

Pain in December, got ice on my face

Pain in December, shoot my wings off, I break

Something you remember, I'm just a broke face

Late December morning she saw my body by lakes

Love, guns out, this a war every day

Cut my heart off and let an angel take my place

Every day my brain clogs way too much to say

Make me wanna grip that AR

And blast out my brains like damn