Meaningless Sex

It's the day after, and I want you to stay for a while

I lose my grip on your shirt, I'm laying here in denial

Dissociating 'cause intimacy scares me a lot

First time my eyes are open, first time I don't fear the touch

Why can't you see what I see? My God, you can't see at all

If you saw what I see, you wouldn't come when I call

You'd be arrogant, I'd see your face on every screen

Instead, you waste late nights on a screen laying next to me

And when I'm begging for it to be over

I imagine you say

"Can I stay for a little while?

This isn't meaningless sex

And I want to fall in love again"

Mm-mm

People pass me on the pavement and they don't seem to make a sound

God, when you're away, all my thoughts are really loud

You called me heroin, but heroines are never this sweet

If I was heroin, then you'd still be praying at my feet

They say they don't like to kiss, so I asked for a hand on my neck

To feel anything at all, but we're kissing in my head

Is loving just how you touch? Is it just how you get off?

If so, I'll lie down right here and let you, just to feel love

And when I'm begging for it to be over

I imagine you say

"Can I stay for a little while?

This isn't meaningless sex

And I want to fall in love again"

Can I stay for a little while?

This isn't meaningless sex

And I want to fall in love again

Do you love me despite my body?

'Cause I've seen the way you look at me

And you look at me like you're seeing me

Just how I always wanted to be

Now I'm crying after we had sex

'Cause I think I fell in love again

Can you stay for a little while?

This isn't meaningless sex

And I want to fall in love again

Can you love me and all my body?

Say I'm not just your pornography

A quick fix and some company

It's just how I've always want it to be

Now I'm crying after we had sex

'Cause I think I fell in love again