Fat

I was 12 and a half The first time a boy called me fat We were at a dance My hair was down Jason came and asked me out As a joke and all his good friends laughed I wonder if he ever thinks about that Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else Didn't see what was wrong with me Just lived in my body Did my best to lose the weight Hoping the hurt would go away But damn skinny feels just the same I'll always carry It in my body My grandma paid me by the pound Said I should try to slim it down Went to meetings with my mom The less I ate the more they applauded Being hungry made me feel so proud I'm still not full yet ten years out Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else Didn't see what was wrong with me Just lived in my body Did my best to lose the weight Hoping the hurt would go away But damn skinny feels just the same I'll always carry It in my body I'm carrying what Jason said All the comments from my mom and dad None of it was ever even mine I could of lived my whole life just fine Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else Didn't see what was wrong with me Just lived in my body Did my best to lose the weight Hoping the hurt would go away But damn skinny feels just the same I'll always carry It in my body I'll always carry It in my body I was 12 and a half The first time a boy called me fat