Credits
PERFORMING ARTISTS
Scrim
Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Scott Arceneaux Jr.
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Budd Dwyer
Producer
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
everybody tryna save me, what the fuck is there worth saving?
touch that holy water, start to burn up like i'm satan
you could never hate me like i hate me, that's a fucking promise
beg my mom and dad for once, just please, please get honest with me
[Verse 2]
walking round with my back knifed
praying to a glass pipe
chewing fentanyl, wishing that it be my last bite
mentally, i'm suffering emotions that i struggle with
feeling that i'm not enough from trauma when i was a kid
[Verse 3]
i'm shedding tears as i'm singing this
blow my head off and i.d. me with a finger print
am i everything you dreamed of me as a kid?
reduced to broken pieces just to play with as you wish
[Verse 4]
oh, i'm so sick of fucking faking
taking medication
only time i feel okay
oh, just stay the fuck away
stay the fuck away
stay the fuck away
stay the fuck away
[Verse 5]
throwing money at my problems
this here, a new bottom
promises of change
paint my face with looks of solemn
straight l's in my column
back, to back, to back, to back
have you ever loved someone, but way too fucking scared to get attached?
[Verse 6]
feelings of abandonment
always fail to manage it
dress it up with diamond chains
money, hoes, and mansion cribs
way to scared to have a kid
could i even handle it?
always dreaming of it till my family bring me back to here
[Outro]
right here in this moment
hey, it's me the doormat
been blessed with all this shit just to not even enjoy it
no, i don't wanna go on anymore
life been so different since my paw paw left this world
i often wonder if he's proud and i'm not sure
who could love what i've become? i'm sure no one
Written by: Scott Arceneaux Jr.
