Heathen

When nights go as I planned

Wish I stayed in the house

But when I leave it to chance

That shits worth talking about

I lined up all my mistakes

Till I can't feel my face

I left my label disgraced

But hey

I'm just a heathen

Chasing good feelings

I'm scared of getting of old

Losing control

When I'm the one responsible

I'm just a heathen

But at least I know

I said October

I'd stay sober

It's been 3 days

Now that's over

I love sex

But I hate feeling

Staying numb is so appealing

Swear I'm not lying

Swear that I'm trying

But my vices follow me

Hid from my shadow

Fell down a black hole

But that darkness comforts me

I'm just a heathen

Chasing good feelings

I'm scared of getting of old

Losing control

When I'm the one responsible

I'm just a heathen

But at least I know