Help My Unbelief

I get lost in my head and I can't get out

I'm scared of everything now

Where is my assurance? Where is my faith?

I don't remember when it all went away

And I'm not quite sure what to say

Never was scared of dying, in fact I was looking forward to it

Now I tense up thinking about my next birthday

Never was scared of lying in the silence

Now I'm scared to look my God in the face

I'm scared to listen to what He has to say

I'm scared it all don't matter anyway

Am I crying to just the ceiling? Or am I crying to You?

I feel so far away and so unworthy

I'm scared to listen to what you have to say

I'm scared it all don't matter anyway

And I'm not quite sure what to say

I'm not who I used to be, and I don't know where to go from here

I try to make my heart believe, shouldn't it be easy?

But I can't turn away for there's no good in the world

I know that life is in Your presence, oh Lord

Do You remember me? I'm praying that You do and I'm praying You still love me

It's a crazy life to live, but it is what it is and it's no good to keep going how I am

I don't need false hope, or fairytales or fables

I just need the one true God to live in me

Won't you teach me all your history?

Won't you show me the way I plead

Won't you help my unbelief

Won't you help my unbelief