Acting Like I’m Fine

I'm falling I'm crashing This riddle Called life I'm falling I'm crashing This riddle Called life I Feel like I'm crashing, I'm acting like I'm fine Hiding all the chaos, gotta keep it all in line All these thoughts are screaming, but I play it cool and calm Till the pressure hits the limit, then it breaks out like a bomb When it's over, guilt is heavy, but I push it deep inside And the cycle starts over, can't escape it though I try God, you'd think I'd learn my lesson, but I always live this lie Yeah, I know I've got my issues Sorry this is what I'm like I feel like I'm falling, I'm acting like I'm fine Masking my emotions, bottled up inside All the time I'm silent but I'm screaming in my mind Till the pressure gets the best of me then it all comes out as violence When I calm down I feel guilty But bury it inside And then restarts the cycle It loops back and rewinds God! You'd think id learn my lesson But I do this all the time Yeah I guess I got some problems I'm sorry that I'm like this Every day's a riddle, acting like I'm in control Smiling on the outside, but there's chaos in my soul My heart is beating faster, yet I keep it all concealed Till the floodgates open wide, and the truth is all revealed Aftermath is heavy, the shame is hard to bare The cycle pulls me in, I cant escape my own despair God, you'd think I'd change my ways, but I go unaware Yeah, I know I've got my issues I'm sorry I'm impaired I feel like I'm falling, I'm acting like I'm fine Masking my emotions, bottled up inside me All the time I'm silent but I'm screaming in my mind Till the pressure gets the best of me then it all comes out as violence When I calm down I feel guilty But bury it inside And then restarts the cycle It loops back and rewinds God! You'd think id learn my lesson But I do this all the time Yeah I guess I got some problems I'm sorry that I'm like this I'm falling I'm crashing This riddle Called life