Dying Space Zinnias

I wonder if they wonder

What is locked

Behind these emerald eyes

If they only knew

What I knew

They would empathize

They can feel it

In my spirit

Know their world

And everything

I wonder if they know

I feel like making them my everything?

It's slowly killing me

All this vulnerability

And now I face the same decision

That's called serendipity

And if you know me

Like I know me

You that's just irony

And then the cruelty of universe

Is never lost on me

I said I wonder where my fire went?

I wonder where desire went?

I used to want the world

But now I'm barely inside of it

Maybe it's my ego

And my sense of entitlement

It feels like my dreams

Got locked behind a wire fence

In a wider sense

I'm tired and

Dreams stole my environment

I just want to sleep

Inside a quiet head

As I play with futures

And think thoughts of retirement

I said I'm out in space

Well find the one star

That I'm brighter than

Its all dark

Understood?

Underpaid

And overbooked

Nothing special

Never good

Got no talent

Verse or hook

I can see I'm trash

Can't believe

This is all I have

My shitty little gang

All connected by shitty dads

They tried warn me first

Putting my the eggs in a bask-et

It's only getting worse

Cause I'm seeing they didn't hatch-shit

21 years

Ain't one of them shits savage

Just hit 27

And it's all remarkably sad shit

Tired of playing victim

And acting like I have shit

Fuck thanking god

That was all Joey and Nat, bitch

I keep it so close

Ion even know how to cope

Am I giving up?

Or am I reinvesting hope?

I'm so tired of my life

Being out of my control

This all started off so fun

And now I've quickly gotten old

Chasing all the highs

Of elusive music notes

Every little second passing

Cost me pieces of my soul

Now I'm souled out

Not selling out

Wish I was selling out

Little good a wish will do

If you want to

Turn your head around

Trapped up on this stage

And I hate the faces in the crowd

If I miss a note

I swear to god that I'm bailing out

I'm over sharing

Over caring

In denial

It's apparent

That I want to be a parent

Instead I'm staring

Into carats

Double a chain

Chained me to chaining game

Trying to make a chaining day

Got me on my Training Day

Hip-Hop's a dirty Cop

Who put me on

And made me stay

Made me feel connected

Fucked me

33 different ways

I'm posted at the station

Thinking

Where the spot it all went wrong

Maybe 2017

When I made my first songs

Scratch it

13' was the worst for me

When me and Tre were making beats

No FL?

I wonder if the devil stay away from me

Or 04'

That's for sure

Acting like I don't know

Staying up until four

'Roses' encore

Watching Andre 3 stacks

Relapse on the too

Deadly drug, attention

Death sentence

I'm repenting one false love below

I got the seeds of doubt

And I brought

My plants to space

BRIC-LED

I'm steadily failing it

I'm falling and bawling

The water drowning

I'm downing it all

The lonely and only

Control is phony

The roots of it all

The plant's my companion

And I can't stand

That I'm losing it all

Fuck