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Wonder...?
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Hip-Hop/Rap
Wonder...? was released on February 28, 2025 by East Rock Entertainment as a part of the album Wonder...? - Single
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Release DateFebruary 28, 2025
LabelEast Rock Entertainment
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM82

Lyrics

I wonder, could all the shit been different
If I just made a couple good decisions (Huh)
I wonder, would I be called a villain (I wonder)
If I confess my sins to all who listen
I wonder, how would my momma lived (I wonder)
If all her walls in unison were lifted
I wonder, could all the shit been different
And if it could then would it make a difference (I wonder)
It'd prolly be appropriate to start where it began
A newborn placed into his momma's hands (Huh)
She often said she always said she always wanted a son
To her delight the lord decided he would provide her with one
And though, she never had it easy in life
She always had a little light in her eye
Because she knew way in the back of her mind
That she conceive a son that shot for the sky
And as he grew he did exactly what she thought he would
Became the top one in this classroom with the thought he could
Fall far from grace and lack the pace to be a star he should
Be so ashamed the rain and pain of what would follow would
Turn him hollow, now momma off of 'em bottles
Some random man comin' over, the picture lacked a role model
No father, go figure, well he was there never present
But soon ejected at his presence, a hell of an exit
Now look what I'm left with
I wonder, could all the shit been different (I wonder)
If I just made a couple good decisions (Huh)
I wonder, would I be called a villain (I wonder)
If I confess my sins to all who listen
I wonder, how would my momma lived (I wonder)
If all her walls in unison was lifted
I wonder, could all the shit been different (I wonder)
And if it could then would it make a difference
You see, this shit ain't been sweet
It left me broken and battered
Became a friend to delinquents
They tried to jump me soon after
My mother's health was declining
She in and out of the hospital
I had no tears left for crying
Just callous walls in my arsenal
But I felt depression
Every thought was wrapped in suicide
My father came back with the milk
Left me like "Who this guy?"
We poor as hell, they only got back for the money
Government checks first of the month
They couldn't come no slower, huh?
They screamin' on each other's face like every other night
So I would tell him keep it down 'cause I don't ever sleep
To no surprise my father targets me and shit would get physical
Then he'd locked me in my room so I could never leave
This shit bananas bro, I look back and I laugh
But it's the reason to this day I never call him dad
Could write a book on all the shit he did
And still wouldn't live to finish it 'cause really I'm still livin' it
It's crazy
Was forced to go to church with Backwoods Baptist religious folks
I'd rather roam the earth a dirty sinner and cynical
Then hear their pseudosciences and sanctimonious sermons
About a tree and a serpent and how Obama's the Antichrist
2020, the greatest slam on my family
I put hands on my old man, for good reason I ain't seen him since
I watched my mother almost die three times that year
They say the favor ain't fair, I say it's a fairy tale, huh
I wonder, could all the shit been different (I wonder)
If I just made a couple good decisions
I wonder, would I be called a villain (I wonder)
If I confess my sins to all who listen
I wonder, how would my momma lived (I wonder)
If all her walls in unison were lifted
I wonder, could all the shit been different (I wonder)
And if it could then would it make a difference, huh
Written by: Manuel Salinas, Matthew Woodrow Wilson
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